Remember how I had said to never ask what else can go wrong..
Well a lil something else went wrong. 5 days after my oral surgery I discoverd that I had a bad infection. I won't go on with the details of the awful smell, pain, bleeding, and other disgusting side effects. But I will say that listening to my instincts saved my tail.
Rather than getting off the train at my normal spot for work I kept hearing this voice in my head that said "stay on and take care of this today" I tried to brush it off and tell myself i'd go to the dentist the following morning, but the voice wouldn't let-up so I sat right there on the train and rode 2 stops down to their office. Next thing I know my dentist is calling the surgeon to get me seen immediately and i'm being treated for the infection. Had I just went to work I'd have suffered needlessly another 24 hours and continued to put my health at risk. When you hear that inner voice talking to you - LISTEN- and then ACT.
Today I went back to the dentist, and i'll be back there tomorrow. I'm getting much better everyday and i'm finally able to smile, laugh, and talk PAIN FREE.. It still pinches a little in my gums when I eat, but i can get over that in time.
Praise the Lord for that!
My recent topics have revolved around bloodshed. More like the loss of my own blood from my body. If pain is proof of life than damnit i'm alive and kicking.
It started innocently enough with a pain in my jaw last month right before my trip to ATL. Fortunately it passed after a few days of minor annoyance and I paid it no more mind. It returned last week with a vengance and my head pounded all day. The pain started in my teeth, went up through my jaw, around my eye, and then back down into my jaw like a circle of pain. I got extra bitchy, cussed random people out, and tried to deal with the pain. I lived with it 4 days before it became unbearable. I found myself lying flat on my back, in the hospital, having internal x-ray & ultrasound (more followup from last month's bloody and painful incident)
It was enough stress lying nearly naked on a table, covered by a little patient gown and a sheet across my lap. The nice nurselady asking if I wanted to insert the device myself (serious wtf look on my face) I saw my uterus on camera and was not amused.. I suppose the stress of all that activity with the pain in my tooth finally was the straw to break the camels back. When she was done I sat up and damn near fainted. Ironic to damn near pass out in the hospital and have them look at you clueless. Their only soloution was to give me a can of OJ and send me on my way. These silly hoes could not even provide me with asprin and said i'd have to buy some in the giftshop. I'm at one of the best hospitals in the city and can't even get an asprin, aint that a bitch.. In an act of desperation I dropped by my dentists office and was nearly crying by the time he put a hand on my mouth. His diagnosis - infected wisdom teeth. Dude are u shitting me...
Next thing I know he's written me a refferal for an oralsurgeon across the street from him, and i'm on my way for a visit. They took pity on my pain and saw me the same day. He writes up a plan for what he is going to do to me. Did this man just sa he's going to remove all 4 of my wisdoms and i have the choice to be sleep or awake. I choose to be totally sleep, just wake me when it's all over. I limp back out to the receptionist desk and she shows me how much the insurance will pay and how much i'll owe. I realize that my portion is a few hundred dollars higher than the monthly mortgage and give her my best ice-glare. Surely they can't be serious. But i'm in pain, don't have the time to shop around for a dentist. They have me by the tooth so to speak. I realize i'm about to seriously overpay but damnit what can i do about it. I try to make peace with it by repeating to myself he's one of the best surgeons in the field.
Thursday I find myself at their office making small talk with the nurseladies as they prep me for the procedure. Where do I work, what do I do, blah blah blah.. Next thing I know they have shot me up full of valium and other drugs and i'm TKO and out for the count. I awaken a few hours later in a state of panic that I can't feel my face, my throat is damn near swollen shut and numb, my lips are covered with blood, and my mouth is stuffed full of bloody gauzes. I get all nasty and violent with my mom when she tries to wake me up to go home in the recovery room. All I want to do is sleep, and she keeps talking. I cussed her out throughly, but it all came out mumble.mumble.mushmouth.mumble through the bloody gauzes in my mouth and the never-ending stream of bloody spit running over my lips.
Thankfully my homie picked me up after surgery, dropped me at the pharmacy to pick up my multiple prescriptions, and she took really good care of me. I'd be lost without the luv and support of a few good friends. My mom was there too, but she only annoyed the shit outta me by fussin over me too much when all I wanted was for everyone and everything around me to be quiet and still. I got home, forced down some pudding, and took my many many many pills. One for pain, one for antibiotics, one for the swelling, and another for pain. I woke up several times lying in a pool of my own blood running from my mouth and sitting on the towel i'd wrapped over my pillow. At some point my roomie came home, looked at me laying with my cheek in a puddle of blood and spit, and he walked calmly out of my room. I have not seen much of him this weekend. He's busy as usual, working, rehearsing, auditioning, partying, networking, ect. More than anything I wanted him to stay home with me, hold my hand, tell me i'd be ok, put ice packs on my face and show me some love. But such is life and we don't always get what we want.
Friday is pretty much a blurr of sleeping, pills, blood, and pain.. I had a milkshake for dinner that night and it's all I could swallow. There was even more blood that night. To topp it all off my cycle got started. I knew better than to ask if it could get worse, because at the rate i was going it could get much much worse and I did not want to tempt fate. PMS mixed with post-surgery pain is something I don't ever want to go through again... Today was much more tolerable, I managed to eat some chinese food (yay for rice n gravy based dishes) and the pain/numb feeling in my throat is finally at a 2 instead of a 10. I asked my roomie why my throat hurt so bad and he said its probably from the anesthesia and the tube they probably put down my throat for breathing. His mom works in the medical field I figured he would know.
Next week I go to have my stitches removed. I doubt if i'll make it back to work on Monday as planned. I'll have to take it one day at a time and see how I feel. I've still got fat swollen chipmunk cheeks, my jaws ache, and i'm barely eating. It hurts to talk too.. The main part of my job is talking so even if i do decide to go i won't be talking, but working by email/computer all day. Screw it i'll just stay home another day. My health is important and i've gotta take care of me. I've got the vacation time so why not use it rite. At times like this I know that the Lord is taking good care of me through it all. I've been thru some things lately and i'm holding tight to his hand.
I suppose i'll take my black azz to bed soon. Pop a few painpills and drift off to sleep. I've been in a narcotic state of high for the past few dayz, why come off it now.. It feels kinda good ya know.
I dunno what took me so long to post this. I'm truely lazy if I can't even copy/paste something from a week ago.. Yeeeessshhhhh.. Anyhoo this is one of the funniest IM convo's i've had in a long damn time..
[12:52] Reddy: miss bouncy was in town yesterday wit her momma @ m.a.cy's
[12:52] Reddy: i shoulda went n stalked her too
[12:53] Singing-C: lol
[12:53] Singing-C: now her perfume STANKS
[12:53] Singing-C: she and Tom.my need to work on that one
[12:53] Reddy: tru.star ? i never smelled it
[12:53] Reddy: hell errybody got a perfume
[12:54] Singing-C: i know
[12:54] Singing-C: the only star's perfume i like is J.lo
[12:54] Reddy: Tr.ina and Kh.ia both got one..... can u say ughhhh @ the thought of what it may smell like
[12:54] Singing-C: still
[12:54] Singing-C: I am afraid
[12:54] Singing-C: See...and I can't stand smelling like a cheap ho
[12:55] Reddy: it prob smell like Pri.mo
[12:55] Reddy: remember that.. lol
[12:55] Singing-C: OMG...I haven't heard of that stuff in YEARS
[12:56] Reddy: we used to think we wuz the shizzznit in highschool... spraying on our primo.. and spraying blonde stripes in our hair wit the canned spray
[12:56] Singing-C: HUSH.
[12:56] Singing-C: you are dating us
[12:56] Singing-C: lol
[12:56] Singing-C: OMG....You remember Chan.tilly and Liz Clair.borne Real.ities? lol
[12:57] Reddy: i dont remember ch.antilly.. but yes @ realities.. lmao
[12:57] Reddy: girls i ran wit wuz really into Av.on perfume
[12:57] Singing-C: i used to be too
[12:57] Singing-C: I am glad that time is over.. OMG....
[12:58] Reddy: u couldn't tell me nuffin when i walked out the house smelling like a bottle of La.hana exploded on me
[12:58] Reddy: freeze curls spritzed and burned into place
[12:59] Singing-C: you are going to make me blog on this
[12:59] Reddy: go for it.. lol
[13:00] Reddy: sheer shirt wit a tank top under it.. super tight jeans, jellies.. crimped hair... lawd we wuz some tacky fools
[13:00] Singing-C: okay...i am over here screaming
[13:01] Reddy: my fat ass had the nerve to wear the skintight jeans with the cris cross holes cut out down the side of the leg
[13:01] Singing-C: me too
[13:01] Reddy: bout 4 herringbone chains on the neck.. nameplate.. lookin like cme and rob me please
[13:02] Reddy: u dun got me started
[13:02] Singing-C: you know what...we were stupid
[13:02] Singing-C: cause i JUST found a herribone braclet i had the other day...
[13:02] Singing-C: i was cracking up
[13:03] Reddy: i still got all my many gold rings in a side drawer of the jewelry box
[13:03] Reddy: i had one like a snake wrapped around my finger
[13:03] Reddy: and errybody had the machine gun ring or pendant for the chain
[13:04] Reddy: those tacky ass spinning rings
[13:04] Singing-C: just T.A.C.K.Y.
[13:05] Reddy: us lil heffas were seniors in 93 wearing french rolls so stuffed with foam and weeve it coulda been a table decoration
[13:05] Singing-C: please quit...i am really dying
[13:05] Reddy: the worst was a girl who's foam would show thru the hair cuz her hair was too short to wrap around
[13:05] Singing-C: I remember when I used to go to the hair dresser and she was like...Patrice are YOU FOR REAL???
[13:05] Reddy: falls out
[13:06] Reddy: like 4 styles in one head round prom time
[13:06] Singing-C: for prom I got my hair braided...my mother said that was the ONLY thing she would pay for in terms of my head
[13:06] Reddy: french roll in the middle... fingerwaves in the front.. long crimped tail in the back
[13:07] Singing-C: I swear...the pictures are atrocious
[13:07] Reddy: and i used to stay on some fingerwaves
[13:07] Reddy: TACKY... wit a long weeved peice on the side full of crimps.. or cut on a long angle
[13:07] Singing-C: i couldn't stand them
[13:09] Singing-C: You remember when S.alt.and.pe.ppe.r did that horrible cut...short on one side and long on the other?
[13:10] Singing-C: I remember trying to get that one too....my hair dresser refused that also
[13:15] Reddy: lmao
[13:15] Reddy: i was too scared to do the cut.. so she just curled one side really hard and tight so it gave the illusion of being shorter
[13:15] Singing-C: lol
[13:16] Reddy: then when salt cut her hair kinda short in the shoope video.. i HAD to have it.. i brought in a photo, and damn it looked good
[13:17] Singing-C: lol
[13:17] Singing-C: I had that cut too
[13:17] Singing-C: but that was a DECENT cut
[13:17] Reddy: remember errybody was wearing the tacky outfit pepa wore.. the booty shorts with the long jacket thing that was split from the middle
[13:18] Singing-C: Giiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiirl
[13:18] Singing-C: What we have done to be in
[13:18] Reddy: i neva wore it
[13:18] Reddy: but one of my best homies was 6 foot tall, and wore a size 4... she looked great in it
[13:19] Singing-C: I bet she did
[13:20] Reddy: i wuz always the short one.. feeling left out.. 2 of the crew was 6-footers
[13:20] Singing-C: DAYUm
[13:21] Reddy: these silly fools would want us to all dress alike.. i'm like ummmmmmmmm
[13:21] Reddy: yall 2 can be twins in the spandex dresses.... and me and this other chick who is 5 feet can wobble our asses to lane.bry.ant to find something
[13:22] Singing-C: stop
[13:22] Singing-C: you are KILLING me
[13:22] Reddy: i'm feelin silly today
[13:22] Singing-C: me too
[13:23] Singing-C: cause this is really taking me back
[13:24] Reddy: here's 2 words to take u back..
[13:24] Reddy: RIDING BOOTS
[13:25] Singing-C: stop
[13:25] Reddy: wit the tight jeans or leggings tucked in
[13:25] Singing-C: leggins period
[13:25] Reddy: hell i miss leggins
[13:25] Singing-C: what about stirrups
[13:25] Reddy: child this whole convo may make my blog
[13:26] Singing-C: it is making mine
[13:26] Reddy: ha ha @ stirrups
[13:26] Singing-C: lol
[13:26] Reddy: u know those 80's shirts are comming back
[13:26] Reddy: they had em on good mornin america
[13:26] Singing-C: which ones???
[13:27] Reddy: long ass to the knees shirts... kinda knit lookin... but it's looking like a tube from the hip to knee
[13:27] Reddy: worn wit leggins
[13:27] Singing-C: yes
[13:27] Singing-C: i saw a woman with one on today
[13:27] Reddy: my bootay would look too big in that
[13:28] Reddy: if they bring back them long ass sweater dresses i'm through
[13:28] Singing-C: WHAT ARE YOU SAYING???
[13:28] Singing-C: lol
[13:28] Singing-C: I have a couple of sweater dresses, but I look real cute in them...especially with my heels
[13:28] Singing-C: lol
[13:28] Reddy: i'd rather leave that to the past
[13:28] Singing-C: lol
[13:29] Reddy: they wuz actually on GMA showin folks how to modernize the 1984 mad.onna lucky.star video look
[13:29] Singing-C: oh hell no
[13:29] Reddy: be prepared.. its back
[13:30] Reddy: they also updated the billy.jo.el and jo.an.jett look
[13:30] Reddy: scary shit
[13:30] Singing-C: jesus wept
[13:30] Reddy: falls out